爱情

越在乎越脆弱。

快乐因为你;伤心因为你。

第一滴泪，虽然只是一封信息，其中意义却是那么重。

难道，有多少的快乐，就应该有多少的痛吗？

下午的感动不消片刻却被晚上的文字击溃，是我太不够成熟，还是爱的太深。

爱太深，如果结局不如预期，那种痛，我能承受的了吗？

此刻，好恨自己有这么多的负面想法。一直都把信任放在心头上，可是当孤单一个人的夜晚里时，却被猜忌疯狂的扫射。

心只为你跳痛，一跳一痛，还有多少个夜晚需要熬过去？

狠狠地把信任两字烙在心头，倔强的爱着你。

The Kiss On Forehead.

I love You,I promise.

The Hand In Hand,The Kisses,The hugs.

and I swear.

It is simply beautiful.

Yesterday night was a Great Night. I seen something that I am missing.

tearsdrop for happiness.

C.
My Boy Friend.My Partner.Maybe my true love.

Why maybe?
I want to know why as well.Because I don't even know myself well.

Yesterday morning ,I woke up in his room,I heard someone in the kitchen cooking egg.I was thoughts,Who the hell so lame,cook egg at a morning? LOL.

When I was ready to leave his house,he gave me a breakfast and ask me to eat at home.A homemade sandwich with a Banana.(ya~it's a Banana~)To be honest,I really feel this is hilarious. haha
After he sent me home,I can't wake to go my bro room,and take his camera to capture the warmth breakfast he made for me.I open it,and saw a egg is inside the toast!and I just sweating there.hahaha the LAME PERSON that I thought is C! LOL! shame on me! hahahahha

I really touch.
how many years,how many years I have no homemade breakfast?how many years I didn't receive a breakfast is make for me?

I almost forgot the feeling call Care.
I thought I am loveless.
I fear to ask any Care from those peoples around me,I don't think they willing to.
Of course,some of them I believe that they are hoping me to request,but my heart just locked up.
It's a hard move for me to stepping out the first.

Just now,we chat on msn.
I told him,I am really happy that he made the breakfast for me.Afterward,my mind just exploded.All my emotion just blowing out,I touched.I think of my daddy and mommy.My tears just keep on dropping,and I feeling happy.

I never thought that I will still have the chances to feel what is Happiness and Caring.
I cried so many times for missing my parents,my loveless and loneliness.

This is the first time I cried for Happiness.

God,Please Don't Make Me Let Him Down.
I don't want to be such an asshole nor a jerk anymore.
Please.

I am feeling vain.

I thought I would enjoy it,let my mind roam free,release all the pressure.
It did released,but I paid for it too.
My body inside seems to against me.emotionless,loveless and hopeless.

Is this the thing that I ever wanted?
I hold my soul not to cross the line,I told myself not to lose control.
I am out of my mind.

The dark shadow devoured me.
I didn't even have the idea to stand up,I just lowing my body,seeing the shadow fulfilling my body.
I walk like a zombie,black out in my eyes,I see the light.
It is a light.A light that full of temptation.

Temptation always dominating us.

I talk to myself,I Found it.
The radiance make me stop breathing.
It was a light.

I am no longer myself at the moment.


I woke up with a deep breathe.
I dreamed a dream.
I found the happiness.I met my evilness.

I murdered myself with a smile.

Things Clear up.

I'm Happy.

After we had a COMPLETELY TRUE conversation.
You and I,talk those things out,everything.

I'm glad that I love you.I really do.
All the mess we just cleaned,talk everything honestly,spoke out ours mind.It is really a good moment.

I know all the short way of me and you judged me how bad I am.
I admitted.

I am not as real as the other MEN,I just damaged and feel fear to try.make myself guarded.I just scare to go on without a sure.

after the shameless and hard time,it turn out nice eventually.
Whoa,this is really good.

thank god.
When Believe became trust,there is no LIE anymore.

I Love You.My Friend.

Truly Madly and Deeply.

Today it's her B-day.
The one who have make me so obsessed.I love her,Indeed.
Who will she thinking in this meaningful day of her life?At least I know it will not be ME.

We are already lost contact in a couple days.Does she have ever think of me?Does she know that I am exist?
I'm sad.I just can't get over her,my minds my heart and dream are full of her image.I don't even know I can have a moment to not to think of her.Every little things she told me,it all made my day.

I watching my cell phone,I decided not to press any button.I just tired of beings the silly and innocent guy.SHE WILL NEVER BE MINE.wake the fuck up !
I'm not blaming her,she never gave any promises to me even the reply of my confession.

I'm just a NOBODY.
I thought I am living in the heaven,but matter fact is,I am living in my fantasy.

I'm a day-dreamer.

Now I believe that Retribution is exist.
Those girls and boys that I have had hurt in past,they are taking all the revenge to me.
I can hear their shattered heart.

Clearl Louder and hurtful.

You told me,we are friends.
Ya.FRIENDS.We are just a friend.

To my friend,
I thoughts I'm the special one to you.I was thinking that we can share ours Happiness,Sadness and so much more to each other.I was truly believe that you and I will holding each other hand until forever.
However,It's time to wake up.I have to accept the fact. The cruelest part in my life.

How many times I cried and devastated,It all are unimportant.
I don't believe GOD anymore,but I still asking him to bless you and take care of you as a begger.

I asking God does HE love all his children?And questioning myself.